OK, well, where to begin with this one? *rolls eyes*
Everything was fine. Perfectly fine. I thought something might be wrong Thursday night because he kind of kicked me out, but he said he had to go meet his mom really early the next morning, and I figured he didn't mean any hard by it. He also said he couldn't come see Finding Nemo with me Friday because he'd be with his mom all day...even though the movie started at 10 PM. But whatev.
So I called him after Finding Nemo to see if he was back and left him a voicemail. Left him another voicemail around 3 PM Saturday. Thought it was a bit odd he wasn't calling me back, but I never worried with him, I figured he just got busy or something. So he called me back Saturday around 6:30 and sounded REALLY weird...like something was totally wrong. I asked him what was wrong and he said he was just tired. I then asked him when he had gotten back the previous day (remember, he turned down Finding Nemo at 10) and he paused and said, "I don't remember." Which means, of course, that he got back in the early afternoon and just didn't want to call me. So I got a little pissed and told him he sounded tired and he should go sleep and to call me tomorrow. So he said OK and hung up.
*time lapse: 3 minutes*
The phone rings. I think it's weird that it's him again and pick up. The conversation pretty much goes as follows:
Ben: "Listen, we need to talk, and I don't think you're going to like it. I don't think we should see each other anymore. We're just two very different people. It's nothing you did, it's me, you're a decent girl and you'll find someone who will treat you better. I just don't know who I am around you, and I don't like it. You deserve someone who will treat you how you deserve. I just can't go on if my heart isn't in it. I hope you understand.
Me: *counting the cliches in my head* OK...I don't really know what to say to that...
Ben: I don't know if there's anything you can say.
So right about now, you have to realize two things. Number 1, his excuses made him sound as if he was reading off of the "cliche break-up pamphlet" or something. I mean, seriously. At least come up with something creative. And number 2, he broke up with me over the phone! What, are we in 7th grade or something? Honestly, it was almost laughable. I cried for about two minutes, and then realized how ridiculous the whole thing is, and obviously, he isn't worth my time if he's going to be so juvenile.
And thus, the Julie becomes single. Feel free to hit on her mercilessly.
Ben just broke up with me.
Details to follow, when my computer will sign on the internet again...
Oooh, crazy updates in the world of Julie's website!
Let's see here...My friends (children of the revolution) is FINALLY updated. My links page (fly away) opens in new windows and has a few new links. There's one new quote under the friends section (naughty words). All of my writing (poetic enough?) has dates on it finally, and my dream journal is updated. I think that's all...
We saw Finding Nemo at Capen tonight. I just adore that movie. I agree that Monster's Inc. is better, but Ellen Degeneres as Dori just makes Nemo...not to mention the Pixar short in the beginning is hysterical. It was enjoyable, not to mention the fact that I got to see Amanda! Hoorah! I miss that girl. Unfortunately, Ben wasn't able to come because he went to see his mother today, but I highly doubt he was gone until 10. I wish he was willing to spend more time with me, like, out. I feel like our whole relationship is based in his apartment...that's not cool with me. We've talked about it, though, and there's just not much I can do about it to immediately rectify the situation.
This weekend proves busy. I have two novels to finish, not to mention an awful lot of stagecraft, children's lit, and, if I was smart, cit and gov. I don't really feel like working in that class, though. I just don't find it necessary. Not to mention that I have to do laundry, and hopefully, I'll be able to see Ben...I wanted to go to the mall too, relax a little, but Liz is too busy. Next weekend is family weekend though, so my mom will take me and buy me things.
I finally solidified my schedule for next semester, and yes, I'm taking physics again. God help me. I understand it, I just have very little interest in it if I'm not being taught by Joe...*smiles* I'm also taking educational psych, stage direction, american family, theatre ed, voice 2, movement 2, and make-up. This schedule is for if I drop down to a permanent sub at work. If I move up to a student manager, I have to drop something...probably ed psych, though in reality, I'd prefer to drop stage direction...I guess I'll decide if that issue comes. 21 credit hours, here I come. Mushy white walls, book me a room.
Is that all going on in my ever so interesting life? The two other hosts came to work drunk tonight and proceeded to steal food, that was fun...other than that, no, I'm just hanging around and updating at 2 AM. I think I'll kick Ashley and Jeff off my bed now and sleep a bit, at least until my conscious wakes me up tomorrow morning to get work done. Blech to the max.
So much craziness, so little time...
Disney has discontinued their summer program, so I won't be interning over the summer as I was planning.
I did not get cast in Normal Girls, which is a bit disappointing.
I'm either taking 21 credit hours next semester and moving down to a permanant sub at work, or taking 18 credit hours and moving up to a student manager.
Liz says I should blog everyday...I think she's a big loser. *hugs Lizzy*
Sooo...I'm seeing Ben tonight, making him watch Love At Stake finally, and we're having "make-up sex w/out the sex" so I can apologize for the small tiff we had on Tuesday. Heh...sex with no sex...this should get interesting...
Just watched the FRIENDS premiere...seems like this season will be better than 8 and 9. Thank the Lord.
*yawns*
Yeah, so, I haven't really updated in a while. Sue me.
I've basically been working and doing homework and stuff...not too much fun in my life lately. I've officially decided that my stagecraft teacher is the worst grader ever, so that's exciting. I'm doing really well in all of my other classes, but stagecraft can bite me as far as I'm concerned. I just took my prose midterm, too, and I think I did all right. There were two questions I had no idea on, but I think my essay was good enough to make up for it. I did a ten-minute teaching this morning in ed, which went well. Hoorah.
I'm finally over the awful St. Louis cold, which makes me quite happy. Hoorah for echinachea, I can't imagine what that would have felt like without it.
Oh, and this is exciting. Ben and I are now officially together. This makes me very happy, even though I only get to see him, like, maybe twice a week because I'm so busy and he usually works nights. I know that sounds dumb, and it's not that I'm NOT satisfied with twice a week, it's just that considering he lives, like, two miles from my dorm, it seems like I should see him more often. I guess I'm just used to high school, where you see everyone every day.
So I have auditions today for Nick Izzo's newest play, Normal Girls. I want to be in it SO badly. I can identify with the character of Kris more than I've ever identified with any other character in any play ever. I know I could rock the cazba, if that's how you spell it. So wish me luck on this, it means a lot to me.
*yawns* An hour to do homework before movement...
There is nothing quite as funny as watching Marian Hampton my proper and sophisticated voice teacher, whack at imaginary puppies with a tennis racket.
But this might come close...Thanks for this, Anna!
Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae.The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.Fcuknig amzanig, huh?
Randomness, so I won't have to start my homework...
Three random things.
First of all, I just completely wasted thirty minutes of my life at a "discussion session" for Citizens and Governance. I put this in quotations because there was little discussion, and a whole lot of our leader staring at us, waiting for us to ask questions. Grr to the izzo.
Second of all, the stairwell in my dorm smells like cat food.
And, third of all, ISU just got even weirder. I know, I didn't think it was possible either. On my way to the afforementioned "sit and be bored session", I saw what I can only assume is the ISU Medieval Torture Club practicing on the Quad. This consisted of about ten guys dressed in polyester knight costumes (think bad Halloween store) all beating each other with large foam bats, foam maces, foam bows and arrows, and even foam swords.
*looks quizzical*
Friday! *dances*
This will be the first weekend I'll be here since...the first weekend. This means that I get to relax, and hang out with my friends, and get some homework done. I'm excited. Three of my high school buddies are coming down tonight, and the four of us, Rueff, Jeff, and my "boyfriend" Ben are going to the weekly theatre party. I'm only planning to hang there for a little while, and then Ben and I are going back to his place to watch some Alias. Hoorah! BTW, I want to be Sidney Bristow. How cool is her life?
Saturday, I'm sleeping very late, and then going with Lizz, Emily, and Tirza to check out an apartment. I have to talk to Elisabeth about the living situation next year...we're not really sure who's going where. But we'll see what happens I suppose...oh, she just walked in. I'll talk to her now. *long pause* OK, she says to just take her spot, she's going to England. Awesome for her. I'll have to go visit her. So, if all goes well, I have an apartment.
Sunday, I have a bunch of crap to do for my Citizens and Governance test on Monday. Study sessions and the like. Plus, the theatre ed-ders are having a potluck on Sunday that I'd like to attend, if I can get a ride.
Overall I'm really looking forward to this weekend...I loved Free Enterprise of course, but yay for staying at ISU!
Wow. I'm warning you now, unless you're familiar with QBiz or you really love me, this entry will bore the hell out of you.
I had an absolutely amazing weekend in St. Louis, despite the fact that it's St. Louis. On Friday, Joe picked me up to go to Yager Free Enterprise, one of several large conferences our business does each year. Michele And Charleen were already in the car, and when we picked up Pat, we were on our way. After several hours of annoying car songs, the license plate game (which continued all trip), and trying to recharge my batteries, we arrived and Joe and Michele's hotel (the right one, finally) and then us 3 kids took the car to ours, which was out of the city. We met them back at Union station, had some dinner, and went to meet Jeff Thompson, our upline platinum. And thus, the weekend begins.
The Savvis Center was packed. It was unbelievable to me. We stood in line at the tools table for, like, hours on end, where I proceeded to buy $55 worth of stuff simply because I wanted to. We went in, got horrible seats, I discovered I couldn't hear right and I couldn't see the ASL interpreter, and I got pissed. Eventually I started to catch some of what was going on, at which point a terrible Temptations review came on stage...and stayed on stage...and stayed on stage...until we got sick of them and left. C'est la vie, right? The highlight of Friday night was that first of all, I got to see all of my uplines for the first time since the Net Sem and second of all, I bought lots of tools. Got back to the hotel and finally got to sleep around 2 AM.
Saturday was FRICKIN' AMAZING. I don't even know where to begin. *ponders* First of all, the QBiz band that we apparently have, Day One, is awesome. They sang some great motivational stuff that made me happy. Then they proceeded to do an unexplainable QBiz rendition of that awful Chumbawumba song (You get a ruby pin, you get an emerald pin, you get a sapphire pin, you get a diamond pin...) at which point Joe got up and did what is apparently the obligatory dance, I laughed hysterically, and a picture was taken. Gretchen sang the national anthem (wooh!) and we got on our way.
I learned so much and was so motivated that I can't even describe it all. Some highlights for me were having Kiyosaki talk to us, Rich Ruffalo, and of course, our new upline diamonds, Kelly and Carrie Rogers. Their "induction" so to speak was wonderful. I'm so glad I got to see that, it really made the dream real. Unfortunately I started to feel really dehydrated during their induction, which lead to, like, half an hour of dillusion and a brief fainting spell until I got water. Whatev. Going diamond...how surreal. I can't wait until it happens to me.
Another huge highlight for me was seeing the new silvers and golds cross the stage, at which point I set a dated goal - I WILL be a new silver next year. Absolutely no excuses. I want to work hard, I'm ready to tackle this and make it a priority despite my busy schedule, and next year, I will cross that stage. Not to mention that Joe will cross as my new upline platinum, which I can't wait to see.
Dexter also talked to us, which I was very excited about, but moreso because he's Dexter than because of anything he said. All in all, though, it was an amazing conference. Plus, I got to watch the interpreter and read lips the whole time - we had a ventriloquist entertain, which I've been told was funny, but it's a bit hard to read lips when they're not moving, eh? *smiles* I have no idea what happened that whole half hour.
We had a brief after meeting, went back to the hotel, and I proceeded to draw out all of my plans, update my names list, and get really excited. This morning we ate breakfast and left, and now I'm back at ISU.
Charleen and Pat, you're both great downlines. I know this business can be tough sometimes, and so can life...but we can and will make it. We have goals, and we have a means to make them come true. I can't wait to see you two cross stage as thousands, silvers, golds...and I know, in many years, I will get to watch my downlines cross as diamonds. Your names, Pat and Charleen Shea, will be up in the arena for 6,000 people to see. I'm looking forward to it.
The rest of my downlines, you missed an amazing conference, and I can't wait to tell you about what I learned. I hope you can make it next time. September's a big month - let's get you to the next brackets!
And Joe...Joe, there are no words for how thankful I am to you. Not only for introducing me to this opportunity and helping me so much, but for arranging this weekend so that I could be there, so that all of us could be there. It involved a lot of driving for you, a lot of money you wouldn't have had to spend, and left you without a car for three days. You know I'll never be able to thank you enough for your dedication to this business and to us as people. I love you, Don Quixote, my little idealist. *smiles*
I think that about covers everything...I can't wait to go back. This business is changing my life, and not just because of the money, but because the support is so amazing...and I can't wait until I'm big enough to support others like that.
In close...QBIZ ROCKS!
Have I mentioned the poltergiest in my room yet? There's a poltergiest in my room...to make a long story fairly shorter, we finally pulled out ye olde ouija board an hour or so ago and learned some very interesting things.
1. Her name is Pam.
2. She attended ISU, but died in 1960.
3. She was a nursing major.
4. At some point, she lived in my room, 108 Monroe.
5. She lived on my side of the room, which is one of the reasons she's been targetting me.
6. Another reason is because I moved in early, which upset her.
7. The third reason is because of my close relationship with a man named Joe...her fiance's was named Joe.
8. Her Joe, Joseph Alam, was a business major who now lives, unmarried, in Washington DC.
9. She died in a car accident.
10. Joe was also in the car, but neither of them were driving.
11. She wants us to find him...but he doesn't appear to be listed in the phone book...
12. Yes, she confirmed that she broke my mirror and is accountable for the other weird goings-on.
13. While she lived in my room, Joe was living at 1337 Manchester.
Is that all? *questions Liz and Ashley* I think that's the important stuff...she likes questions and she appears to like us. We told her we'd talk to her in a few days and let her know what's going on, but so far, I can't locate a Joseph Alam in DC. And I want to find out about her death...maybe I'll go to the library sometime in the next few days? *looks at schedule* Or maybe next week...we'll see how it goes...